Yes I'm using my son's toy turtle as a metaphorical symbol to slow down. Here's the message - to myself.
Life is short, but it will be shorter if I don’t slow down. I
need to take the time to smell the roses (or the sweet smell of a freshly
bathed baby boy) and just accept the way things are. right now.
Vent: Today, I need a little perspective and I have been truly struggling . . . why can’t people just do what I want and behave the way I want them to!? Obviously, this isn’t realistic but when I really think about it that’s what I’m asking of them. I become this spiteful person who wants to call people out and say a whole bunch of “I told you so’s”. I don’t want to be that way. That really isn’t who I am. It’s hard.
Over the past few years dealing with so many disastrous life altering problems of other people , I’ve become a little desensitized. I HATE feeling that way! So, when people come to me with issues – I go pretty flat. When it should really remind me of why I do my job and why I became a social worker to begin with.
Sometimes, I want to scream and just say “I’m I allowed to have a bad day once in a while?” I REALLY try to keep it positive, but some days…I’m just over it. My head goes to such a negative place. Then there are days like today when there is SO MUCH going on up there, I just completely shut down and struggle to make myself care. ARG!
Perspective: I (me, Stephanie, wife, daughter, sister, Jonah’s mommy) have an incredible life! Yes I’m allowed to have a bad day, but I’m also responsible for being thankful. I am responsible for asking forgiveness and grace. It’s my job to pray for compassion and empathy when I can’t seem to muster it up. I’m not quite there today, but I know there is a light for me. So, I am taking THIS moment to slooow down and just be.
I am grateful. For my life, my family, interrupted sleep, a mommy loving baby, and my job. Right now I’m thankful for this place – this blog – for providing me with so much more than I ever expected.
Thank You friends.
Linking up for this WORDFUL Wednesday.
The last picture is fantastic. Nothing like little baby feet in the grass.
ReplyDeleteI love these photos. Sometime when you have to deal with dysfunction all the time you can become dysfunctional yourself. So remember "Don't let their dysfunction become your dysfunction!" Thanks for your honesty I can completely relate. Happy 4th of July! :)
ReplyDeleteFab post, beautiful post and one very gorgeous blog. I stumbled across here from the photo party at Our Footprints On The World and I'm so glad I did. I'm now your newest subscriber. So in love with your blog. X
ReplyDeleteCute turtle!
ReplyDeleteLove the perspective shot of the chubby baby toes and hands. So adorable!
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